Better places

The thunder is rolling in the background, I can hear the patter of rain on the back deck. I have the lights dim in the house and I am snuggled in my white chair drinking hot, bedtime tea.
I am so relaxed, I feel so peaceful. The kids are in bed sleeping and for the first time in a long time, I don't feel like I should be doing something else.
My dog is laying at my feet and the kitten is sitting at the edge of the chair. I could probably fall asleep sitting here.
My body is completely spent. I haven't been sleeping enough, working too many hours and training my body as hard as I can. Tonight I got an incredible workout after class. My body is humming it is so tired.
That is the best feeling. All energy spent. All stress gone. Muscles tired but satisfied. It feels so good.
I reread some of my lastest blog entries before I started writing tonight and I was amazed at how difficult of a place I had been in the past few months. Its sad that the only time I was writing was when i was frusterated. That is what is important to me about this blog. Regardless of who reads it or what anybody thinks, I want this to be a place of honesty for me. So that means that not every single entry is going to be cotton candy and lollipops. This is real life we are talking about.
I am in a much better place. I have new stresses and new challenges but I do not feel as closed in as I did before. I feel free to make decisions and changes as necessary without feeling like I need to ask permission. Sometimes I think the toughest decisions to make are the ones that are the most important. It's like God needs to see if he can trust you to listen and make the right choice so he can bless you and bring the next phase into your life.
Maybe that is not for everyone, but that's how it works for me. I am at a point in my life where I want to succeed. I want to listen and learn. I know that I don't know it all. God does. I choose to listen to my Father's voice.
So anyway, life is good. I feel like I am in a transitional point. I feel like things are preparing to change drastically. I am ready, how fun!