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I live to love life or love to live life. I look for the beauty in all things. I am a dreamer. A bit of a free spirit. I am a very private person deliberately sharing pieces of my life. Thoughts, goals, plans, lessons learned, heartaches and dreams. I hope you enjoy and can learn something from my personal journey.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

It's time to get serious about making changes!

I have things in my life I want to change. Can anyone out there relate?
When I look back I am very thankful that I am not where I once was but as I take a realistic look at where I am now, I know I'm not yet where I want to be. I do not do this in a condemning way. I refuse to allow guilt to stick around. I receive the conviction and desire to do better and make better choices.
What are "better" choices/decisions really?
For me better decisions are higher decisions.

Isaiah 55:8-9
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the LORD.
"For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts."

I have some bad habits. Because this will help me to acknowledge, process and begin to change them. I am going to list them.
1. procrastination
2. multi-tasking (to the point of not being able to focus on one thing at a time)
3. spend too much time on media (facebook, my phone, my computer)
4. Enjoying and "being" in the moment is difficult for me
5. spending interrupted time with the kids where I am not distracted by a person, my phone, facebook or work.
6. I am "busy" all of the time
7. I need to feel loved and wanted
8. I crave discipline but have a hard time sticking to a goal once I set it

There are more I am sure, but this is a good place for me to begin. I want to change. I am not looking at these things and wallowing in self hatred. Just to show you (or me) that I have a healthy balance, I am going to list my positive qualities.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Psalms 139:14

1.I have a genuine, loving heart
2. I love God, love my family, love people
3. I am great at building rapport and relationships
4. I am business minded, determined and I refuse to give up.
5. I always try to find the silver lining in EVERY situation.
6. I know who I am in Christ and refuse to accept less than I should.
7. I am generous and loyal and protective of those I love
8. I am athletic, adventurous and fun.

So here is the consensus. I want to change and this is what I want.
I want to live a simplified life, uncomplicated by excess stuff, responsibilities that were never mine to take on. I want to break the addiction to facebook, my computer and my phone and create healthy, balanced boundaries. I want to be single and satisfied. I want to stop being a "busy multi-tasker" I want to focus on one main task each day and then if anything else gets done that day it's a bonus.
I want to enjoy and live my life now. Why wait? What is later? Are we promised tomorrow? No, we have today and today only. I want to start living that way.
How do you start? That is a very important question.
I am going to start with a small step. Writing this was my first step. Acknowledging that I have things to change and I'm ready was my first step. Putting it on paper makes it final somehow.
I'm not perfect, I don't care to be perfect, but I am ready to make some changes.

Day 1. Get organized
-basic house cleaning
-extra stuff off counters
-go through my closet and kids closet

Week 1. Detox
-add fruits and veggies
-remove processed junk
-no extra sugar or salt

Stay tuned! : )

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