Bumps on the road

I am frustrated tonight. Maybe I shouldn't write. Maybe I should wait until I am in a better mood, not so tired. Or maybe I will get the feelings out now instead of waiting like I always do.

I am in a weird transitional place in my life. In the past 2 years I have been through a divorce, the repossession of my car, a near foreclosure of my house (decided to do a short sell and it sold and closed within a month. Definitely a God thing and a story I will cover in my Traveling Light Series) The kids and I have moved multiple times, from our house we sold, to my parents house, to an apartment that I LOVED! It represented freedom finally! A new season in our lives. We lived there about 8 months and I was able to keep the kids in their same school last year. This year they told me that if we stayed where we were that the kids would have to change schools. I was unwilling to do this as the kids have been through so much change the past 2 years. Sooo we moved again, back into my parents house while they were in Alaska and most recently into my best friend Jessica's house with her family. This put us back in the neighborhood zoned for the kids school.

I am worn out and frustrated as I do not see an end in sight. Then I feel bad feeling this way as everyone has been so good to me and and the kids. My parents opening their home, Jess and Brandon opening their home and sharing their time and space. I am doing the best I can, working as hard as I can but I feel like I am moving in slow motion. There is nothing more that I want then to move back into a place that is "ours" where I can walk in, drop my stuff on the floor, look around and know that I am providing for my children. I know that the Lord has a plan for me (Jeremiah 29:11) and I cling to that knowledge daily. He has been with us on this journey as well, I know he has. We may have struggled, but we have never gone without basic necessities.

There are exciting things going on now business wise, I just need to stay focused. I am just venting I suppose and hoping that I am not judged for my negativity at the moment. I know that things are going to turn around. I know that I am going to be successful and I will look back on this challenging time like it was nothing. But right now I am longing for a couch with a fuzzy blanket, a roaring fire and a place I can call my own.