I can't stand it.. I feel like I need to get out. I feel trapped by my life. I have been dealing with
panic attacks the past few weeks. What does this stem from? I am dealing with fear that I have never had before. I'm scared. How do you know if you are making the right decision?
And if you know you are making the right decision, how do you follow through?
I have given the warning signs. I have silently cried for help. It wont be long now. I wish someone would understand.
Gonna pack my car, gonna pack my bag. Gonna drive across the country and find a few favorite spots. Coffee shops in Seattle, choppy coasts in Oregon, lighthouses in Maine, beaches in SC.
Don't worry, I wont abandon the kids. I wont leave my business or my commitments. I just need some time to be me. Just to be.
Someday i will figure it out. Someday I wont run when somebody tries to get too close. Someday I will be able to think forever without shuddering. It isn't someday yet. And for now, I am still free. And my kids love road trips.
