I was downtown this morning after I finished training a client and I took a minute to cruise the streets. I simply adore Nashville. I LOVE being downtown.

I drove with the windows down and breathed in the fresh spring air and looked all around,

I would love to buy a condo down there and truly experience downtown living.

Maybe some day..

I have been on a kick lately that every place I go I want to be somewhere I have never been. It's a fun little game. Tye has been a good sport, driving around while I look around and decide where I want to eat. This process sometimes takes us 30-40 minutes but it is always worth it.

We also took the kids on a walk the other night, up that REALLY big hill in front of the capital building. Once we got up there, I decided that it would be fun to roll down it. You know, like you used to when you were a kid?

Ok well it hurts a lot more than it used to. And that's all I am going to say about that. ; )

We ended up exploring the old historic part of downtown and it was so awesome. In the 6 years that I have lived here I have never taken the time to do that.

Tye rang the big giant bell and literally scared the you know what out of us.

Eli ran faster than I have ever seen. We laughed and laughed until we realized that Grace was crying because she thought the cops were going to come get us! LOL!

Nashville is just great. If you haven't ever been here you must come.

We have the coolest little music venues, quirky coffee shops, friendly people.

It's just all around a great great place.

Well, gottta run. Grace has gymnastics at 3:30 and Eli has a baseball game and 6:00.

It's gonna be a good night.

Love you all.

He is peace to the wounded and help for the helpless one.

Wait patiently, upon the Lord.

When the waves rise against me and the waves try to draw me away.

I will stand on the mountain safe in your arms, I will sing.


I feel like driving. Actually today I have felt very claustrophobic. I hate that feeling. It makes me feel like I need to take a really deep breath.

It makes me feel like leaving.
Windows down, music blaring, hair down. Responsibilities left in the previous town.
I want to go somewhere new.
Quaint coffee shops, creative energy, artsy streets, bookstores, and art galleries.
It makes me wonder if I will ever be able to completely settle down and feel content.
I am blessed. I have a million and one things to be thankful for.
That is not the problem.
The issue is, I want my freedom. I have no desire to buy another house that I am tied to. I do not want to remarry anytime soon.
I didn't even want to sign a lease on my apartment.
I want to feel free. I don't want to have to explain why I feel this way sometimes.
I just do.
I have been responsible my whole life. But my entire life I have struggled with rebelling against that responsibility.
Today for example I want to drive to Asheville, NC. Alone. I want to wander down streets. I want to get lost. I want to eat dinner in a cute little restaurant. I want to get a little tipsy. I want to buy a piece of art from a local artist because it called my name.
Stay in a bed and breakfast. sleep in. write. dream.

It makes me wonder what the Lord has planned for me. He put big things inside of my heart. I know He did. I believe that is why I am not content to live a boring, life.
I want to see, explore, experience, really truly live. You know?




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"Well it's a winding road, when your in the lost and found. You're a lover, I'm a runner and we go 'round and 'round. And I love you but I leave you, I don't want you, but I need you. I've got a gypsy soul to blame and I was born for leaving.."
Zac Brown Band

I am craving a new place. When I feel like this, it's a fire in the pit of my stomach. I just want to pick up and go. Pack the essentials, give away the rest. The ocean is in my blood and that is where my heart is. If the kids were game, we'd move back to Maui, and buy a small cottage on the beach.
An open, airy little place with big windows and a sliding glass door that opened to the warm sand and roaring sound of the ocean. I'd decorate in blues and whites, wicker furniture, and have hard wood floors. It would be covered in art with books everywhere. The kids would have the freedom to play, paint, learn, explore and enjoy life.
Every morning I would enjoy fresh Kona coffee in the sun, birds chirping, and the glorious smell of the ocean.

Jack of all trades

It's on my heart to write today. I have actually wanted to for days now but there has simply been no time to carve out to relax and write. Even now I am sitting in a cozy corner of panera wishing I could sit and do this for hours but I only have a few minutes before I meet a client and the day officially begins. I have a heavy topic on my heart today and that is being a single mom. I honestly don't think there is a more difficult job in the world. I actually love being a mom to my kids and honestly don't mind doing it alone. There are times when it would be easier to have someone at home helping me all of the time but having done both I am also thankful to be independent as well. Yesterday after I worked all day, I picked my kids up from the bus stop and took my daughter to gymnastics. While she practiced, her brother and I did homework. After a two hour practice we stopped by Kroger so I could pick up some things to make dinner. Chicken enchiladas had been requested. When we got home, we took the dogs out, I begin cooking dinner, grace took a shower then did homework. We sat down to eat as a family and talked about their day. Immediately after dinner I cleaned the kitchen, put left-overs away, packed snacks for school the next day and went through backpacks while the kids relaxed with a movie. Bedtime, teeth brushed, vitamins down, fresh water, tuck tuck and kisses. "mommy, can I have a string cheese?" "I have to go to the bathroom" " Did you sign my folder?" "My throat hurts!" "Go to sleep kids, I love you."

I love my life and truly wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

But I am also well aware that this is that hardest job and the most rewarding job I will ever have.